I went for a competition today. I didnt win. It was on deregulation of oil prices. Well atleast now I know what the hell that means. Not that thats much of a consolation. When I see the other participants and compare myself to them, its depressing. They're so eloquent, well versed, so confident. Its like they walk knowing that they're gonna be awesome. DPS won.Quelle surprise!What is it about Dipsites? Love them or hate them, you cant ignore them. They wont let you. Not only do they win at compis organised by other DPS-esess (which are rigged =/) they also win everywhere else. How come? Lets add that question to the long list titled "Mysteries of the Universe."
The competition was in Sanskriti. Awesome school. Atleast in terms of infrastructure. Its all so aesthetic. They have a pool, a lot of greenery and an amazing auditorium. I felt as though I was sitting in PVR. Cool refreshments, too. Subway sub, Subway cookie, juice and samosas. No, Im not joking. if Im born as a Delhite in my next life, I soo want to study there.
These competitions are not good for my self esteem. I feel weird. Maybe I should just accept the fact that i suck at non-academic stuff. I am a geek. Why do I even bother doing other things? =(
You know the saddest part? Instead of talking to a person about this, Im posting it on my blog. My situation is sad. Im sad. And a freak. Im a sad freak.
Babe, withdrawing from such exposures is not the way to deal with it. Everyone experiences incompetence at some point in their lives, and hon you're quite a bright bulb!
ReplyDeleteYou'll be just fine, just don't let these go, keep oing for as many competitions as you can, that's the only way you can get yourself out of these sad notions in your head :)
much love!
P.S- haven't seen u much on my page lately! where have you been?!
thanks :)
ReplyDeleteim feeling a lot better. Was just having a bad day, thats all! now im fine :)
aww, thats the sweetest writeup I have read in the longest time; I am actually grinning! I remember losing a big bunch of quizzes and so much more when I was in school, and feelin like a freak. School got over; I stayed the freak!
ReplyDeleteYou are a good writer, very eloquent. Keep writing, and we shall see some great stuff from you I am sure! And stiffen up that upper lip! :)
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P.S.-Since you are from Delhi, would you be interested in a writer's meet that we hold every fortnight? You could come up and meet other freaks like you, including me! lemme know at insanemindfreak@gmail.com (told you!!). Hope to see you around! :)
Thanks!
ReplyDeleteYeah i might be interested in those meetings. Lets see. Since im still a kid, it all depends on my mom and papalappa. :S
Dont mind me asking, what does "stiffen up that upper lip" mean? That i should stop being whiny?
priyanka!!! relax!! 'twas jus one stupid competition amongst hundreds of others....now dat u noe where all uv got to improve, work on those areas. n next time u'l go as a much more confident n eloquent speaker who'll walk knowing dat she's gonna win.
ReplyDeleteall the best!! ; )
Just name a person who's good in EVERYTHING!!
ReplyDeleteChill, you're a good writer and sensitive person...that's what matters. Besides, unknown to you, you have certainly picked 'learnt' something from all these experiences. Nothing's ever wasted in this life. Sometimes, a good kick in the seat of the pants works wonders :)